Speaking in tongues is a gift of the Holy Spirit that I love. Prior to receiving the gift, I loved praying in understanding.
Prayer is only a means for me to have fellowship with Jesus whom I love so much. Over the years, my love for Jesus has grown to levels I rarely see in believers.
But my love for Jesus comes at a price; I have to give up many things that are considered normal for a young adult to do.
I have been considered an extremist by a few people including church leaders in a church I used to attend.
While I would want to live a moderate life for the sake of many people, my love for Jesus won’t let me. It has come to a point where I have to choose between pleasing people and pleasing Jesus.
Leaving College to Speak in Tongues
For the past couple of years, I have lost taste with earthly norms. Attending school has been one of the most affected areas.
I once dropped out of college. But after my father learned of it, he insisted I go back. Out of love for him and wanting to keep my relationship with him, I reluctantly went back.
But after a year of forcing myself to study, it has come to a point where I have to let it go. My love for my Lord Jesus has prevailed over my commitment to get a degree to please my dad.
I had no intentions of getting a degree but after my dad persuaded me to get one, I gave it a shot.
I find it hard to explain to people why I can’t complete a degree and then pursue speaking in tongues. Many of the people I fellowship with advocate for this approach but what they don’t know is that at the level I have gotten to, being in school is betraying Jesus.
My Will to Speak in Tongues and Dad’s Will for Me to Study
There is a phenomena I call ‘The Battle of the Wills’.
In simple terms, all that is happening is different wills from different people fighting to find expression.
First, it was my will. When I dropped out of college for the first time, I did it to pursue a lifestyle that I wanted.
When my dad learned that I had dropped out of school, he pushed me to go back. My dad’s will for me was that I study, get a degree, a masters and a PhD. Then I could work for the government or some other formal institution.
While there was nothing wrong with my dad’s will for me, my will was different. I preferred a freelance career that earns passive income.
I defended my will against my dad’s will after quitting college for the first time. We agreed that I would balance both my will and dad’s will.
I was to go back to college but then dad would allow me to pursue my freelance career.
After a year of being in college for the second time, something changed…
Discovering My Passion in Praying in Tongues
While in college, I studied and worked on my freelance projects on the side. Things went smoothly for a while but a certain question never left my mind; Is this what you want to do for the rest of your life?
I knew I wanted a freelance career but I could not decide what to write about since I loved writing. I was writing about all manner of topics.
The question nagged me until I could no longer focus on my studies. Why study when you don’t know where you are heading to? Maybe you don’t need to study at all.
It was in the distress of this question that I decided to pray and ask God what to do with my life. It was a Monday evening and I was praying fervently in tongues.
Then a thought came to my mind; Augustine, you pray so fervently. Why can’t you help others pray fervently as you do?
Then I remembered a prophecy I had been given five years before that I would pray and not get tired. All of a sudden, every piece of the puzzle fell in place.
From that day, I began writing about speaking in tongues and recording myself speaking in tongues on YouTube.
I quickly became very passionate about what I was doing that I lost the little interest I had in studying.
That is how I ended up giving up college for a second time.
I love speaking in tongues with all of my heart. It gives me peace and having fellowship with Jesus is the sweetest thing ever.
Sometimes I pray for people and I feel so good. Presenting people’s issues before God in prayer is something I enjoy doing.
I don’t think I will ever want any other career apart from praying in tongues.
The Plan to Speak in Tongues Going Forward
At this point I am so excited that finally God revealed to me my purpose and I love it with all of my heart. As a result, I will work to defend my passion and build it.
It pleases me to know that whatever I am doing pleases God. The fact that I love what I am doing makes it a million times sweeter.
For my dad, I’m afraid I’ll have to disappoint him again. I love him but at this point, living to fulfill my purpose in God comes first.
I would have wanted to spare some energy to work on my dad’s will but I have chosen not to. All my strength will be spent on pleasing Jesus.
Didn’t Jesus ask us to love the Lord our God with all our hearts, with all our souls and with all our strength? Why then should I spare some strength to please my dad? If my dad is not pleased that I have found my purpose in Christ, then I can’t make him happy.
I know it is not going to be easy but it is going to be as I have decided. Jesus First! Speaking in tongues all the way!
Is it scary? Yes!
Will I quit? No!
I pray that God helps me stand strong.
That is how I dropped out of college to speak in tongues.